Have you been through a break up recently? If so you probably understand all of the emotional stress that comes along with the heartbreak.
I couldn't eat, sleep, and I didn't feel like doing anything.
I was miserable, and it showed.
Anyone that was around me could understand that I was suffering.
I quickly figured out that begging for forgiveness and trying to contact my ex everyday was getting me no where except closer to a restraining order.
It took me a few months to understand that getting my ex back anytime soon wasn't going to happen.
I started to focus on trying to numb the pain.
I had to get my mind off of the relationship that I had lost and focus on making some changes.
At the time I had no idea that this would help me get my ex back.
I decided to stop talking to my ex, because it only caused the pain to resurface.
It was like rubbing salt in an open wound.
I went to the store and purchased a video game that I had always wanted to play and I spent all of my time playing it.
This did the trick and I was so focused on the game that I forgot about my ex temporarily.
Eventually, she came over to my house to visit because she hadn't heard from me for a while.
This was the worst thing that could have happened, because I wasn't prepared.
All of the hurt feelings came back, because I directed the conversation towards our relationship.
Not only that, she discovered that all I had been doing was closing myself away in my home, playing video games.
The next step I took was to get back into school.
I had dropped out to work, and make some money, but I decided that I had to make a change in my life.
I enrolled in college and joined all of the clubs that I was interested in.
Soon I began to make new friends and I started learning new things.
I went out and bought new clothes and I changed my hairstyle.
I looked quite a bit different, and my ex began to notice.
I was actually beginning to have fun again.
I always wanted to go to Mexico, so I took a trip with some friends to Mexico for spring break.
Before I left my ex wanted to start dating me again.
When I got back she was ready for a serious relationship all over.
What I had discovered is that she could see that I had changed and she missed being around me.
When I was miserable and feeling sorry for myself, she knew that I would always be there if she wanted, but once I started doing other things and becoming someone different, she became interested and worried that I might move on permanently.
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