I was a member of a religious sect for 21 years of my life.
I'm a perfect example of "brain washing", thank God I found the strength within to think for myself against great opposition.
I truly believe in the Holy Spirit being the perfect guide to instruct you through life's trials.
We were taught that God never EVER uses doctors.
I still can hear it in my head, "it's not God and the doctors...
it's God".
Deep inside with fear and trembling I started asking questions, "what kind of God do I serve"? You see, I was pregnant for the 6th time, I knew something was different with this pregnancy.
My first 5 babies were born at home, much the way women in the 1800's had babies...
blood, sweat and tears.
We couldn't be sure (because of no doctors) but, we thought we were pregnant with twins, as I couldn't see my feet at the beginning of my 4th month.
I confided with the woman that delivered 4 of my babies, that I was questioning the doctrine taught in the church.
I thought I was safe sharing my deepest fears with her, as she knew me well...
WRONG! I was told by questioning the doctrine, I was not in the faith, therefore she would not aid in delivery of the babies.
I was scared, alone and frustrated with my thoughts.
I started listening to the voice...
THANK GOD for the voice, go to the doctor, Go - To - The - Doctor! I listened.
To make this story short, I ended up having the twins in the hospital emergency room, I had a C -section.
If I didn't listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit, the 3 of us would have died of exhaustion, after all you can't give birth to babies positioned sideways in the womb.
I can identify with the little colored girl who stood up to Mr.
Darby's uncle, In the first chapter of "Think And Grow Rich" by Napoelon Hill.
She would not take "NO" for an answer, but held her ground even when she could have been, severely punished.
I'm alive today with the twins who are 21 years old, because I held my ground.
I refused to let the power of the church and whom I thought were "My Friends" change my decision to go the hospital.
From that point on I never took another step into that church.
Oh sweet liberation! I remember thinking another pregnancy and the possibility of having twins...
7 kids.
But, it was the twins that God used to save my life, and bless us for the rest of our lives! "Surprises don't come into our life that are not divinely planned".
Greet the surprise (problem if you will) with a clear and cool mind and never, ever give up! "Walking in the spirit, living in spirit, staying in the spirit, this is where you will emulate divine power, creativity and liberation"! The mom of 7 happy kids! Caralee, Scott, Leslie, Tom, Emily, Stephen and Phillip (the twins) Debby Beachy